Amber Heard said she is “terrified” of being sued for libel again by Johnny Depp in her first interview since the “Aquaman” actress lost her libel case against her ex-husband three weeks ago in Virginia.
“I assumed it was my right to speak, not just what I experienced, but what I knew,” the actress said of the case in a Friday night interview with Savannah Guthrie on NBC’s “Dateline.”
“I’m terrified,” Heard added when asked if she was afraid of being sued again by Depp.
“I think that’s what a defamation suit is supposed to do, is to take away your voice.”
The full interview with Guthrie aired after several teasers were released throughout the week.
Despite the jury’s decision earlier this month that Heard, 36, had smeared her “Pirates of the Caribbean” ex with the abuse allegations, she insisted she keeps “every word” of her testimony.
In fact, Heard doubled down on allegations that Depp abused her during their “ugly” marriage — and bluntly accused him of lying after he repeatedly denied her allegations during the six-week trial.
At one point in the interview, Guthrie noted that Depp testified that he had never hit Heard during their relationship and that “no woman came forward and said he physically assaulted them.”
Heard responded by hinting that Depp’s other exes may have been too afraid to publicly accuse him of alleged abuse.
“Look what happened to me when I introduced myself. Would you?” she said.
She went on to explain her motivation to speak out publicly after being probed by Guthrie.
“One thing I can tell you is that one thing I am not is vindictive. There’s no part of me that sees any… This would be a really bad way to get revenge,” Heard said.
“I’m not a good victim, I understand. I’m not a sympathetic victim. I’m not a perfect victim, I understand. I am not a saint. I’m not asking anyone to like me,” she said.
“What I learned in that trial is that it will never be good enough,” she said of the jury’s failure to believe her testimony.
“If you have evidence, then it was a scam, it was a hoax. If you don’t have proof, it didn’t happen. If you have a bruise, it’s fake. If you don’t have a bruise, then the violence clearly didn’t hurt you. If you told people then you are hysterical. If you didn’t tell anyone, it didn’t happen.”
Heard said he plans to appeal the court’s decision to award Depp more than $10 million in damages and hopes the interview balances “very real fears that others have. [abuse accusers] may have to introduce himself and speak”
“I hope this doesn’t have the frightening effect I fear it might have on other people,” she said.
Heard also admitted that he “absolutely” still loves Depp and “has no hard feelings” towards him.
Asked if there was anything she wished the jury had seen during the trial, Heard said there are documents from her doctor that “represent years, years of real-time explanations of what was going on.”
“There is a binder of years of notes going back to 2011, from the beginning of my relationship, that were taken by my doctor, to whom I was reporting the abuse,” Heard said at one point in the interview.
Deadline reviewed the binder notes and found that her therapist had written things like “He hit her, threw her to the floor” and “He threw her against a wall and threatened to kill her.”
Heard said he was not confident on the day of the verdict, claiming that the trial appeared to have already been decided in the court of opinion.
“I think most of this trial took place out of court, unfortunately. I think the vast majority of this trial was played out on social media. And I think this trial is an example of that out of control,” Heard said, arguing that the jury must have been swayed by Depp’s fans in court and online.
The jury ended up on Depp’s side, due to the “relentless uninterrupted witnessing of paid employees,” she claimed.
“I don’t blame them. I really understand that he’s a beloved character and people feel like they know him. He’s a fantastic actor,” she said, while admitting that she should have taken on some of her own bad behavior to flatter the judges.
“I’ve done and said horrible, regretful things throughout my relationship,” Heard told Guthrie. “I have a lot of regrets.”
“You know, Savannah, as silly as it is to say it out loud… my goal, the only thing I could hope for right now, is for people to see me as a human being.”